true love is having a crush on him even after he got a haircut
the female mind is a very strange place.
No one’s denying it
I literally can’t take living here anymore. I know I have less than two weeks left but each little thing is seriously pushing me off the edge. I can’t get over my roommates lack of respect for the fact that others live here. It’s truly so ignorant. This morning once again one of my roommates and her boyfriend took a showered together in our bathroom. Ugh, I felt gross going in there after. Then, I just came home from being out and about..and the toilet is fucking broken. Someone went number 2, clogged it and instead of doing something about it, simply closed the toilet seat down, waiting for someone else to take care of it. SO FUCKING IGNORANT. If you clog the fucking toilet, don’t just put the seat down, walk away and act like it didn’t happen, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I’ve been trying to unclog it because I really have to piss but nothing will work. I shouldn’t be the one unclogging it but like ALWAYS I am left to clean up after everyone else’s mess. Fuck all of this.
IM SO MAD RIGHT NOW. JESSE EISENBERG HAD A BOOK SIGNING LAST NIGHT AND I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT IT WHAT THE FUCK.
I research these things. It’s my dream to meet him. And I had the chance and oh my god why was this hiding.. POUTING FOREVER
Well, today I officially withdrew from classes for next semester. So it’s official..I’m leaving this school, I’m leaving New York and transferring. Of course I feel a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I finally feel calm, knowing that it is official. At the same time I feel sad and disappointed, knowing that my dream is crushed. Obviously I don’t want to stay here if it makes me miserable but it just stinks knowing I’m throwing away something that I wanted for so many years. I thought this was what I wanted but in truth it’s not what was meant for me.
I’m scared about what will happen next. I don’t know what to do with myself at this point. In all honesty, should I even bother going to another school or should I just commute from home for the next four years? God, I would love a normal college experience (Obviously I’m not going to get that at my current school since there’s no campus) But even if I did transfer to a school with a campus, would it really be worth it? Let’s face it, I’m really good at ruining things for myself. All because of my issues with social interaction. It ruins everything for me. I wish I could just be normal. I hate when I hear perfectly normal social people say they are “shy” “quiet” or “awkward”. My shyness and quietness is so much more severe. You have no idea what it’s like to have it this bad. To the point where you literally can’t do anything about it and as a result, it ruins every opportunity presented in your life.
I haven’t made ANY friends at college and let’s face it as much as I don’t like the school itself, my difficulty at making friends is also a majoring factor of why I want to leave. I just don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to talk to people.
Shit and teachers be acting like they knew what the fuck they wanted to be. I bet they were more confused as us